pretendings, pretendings,



ya know, i HATE all the shit that lives in your mind



living in your own gothic dream. ya don' wanna be happy, really, it's what i realized.



i'm damn greatful that ya made one fucking misstake & showed me all the bullshit.



ya're damned masterpice of Shit.



much harder than me with all my rotten stuff



Today is the day that I let you go.




"Two years I have held on to a love that has yet to grow

For me, you're perfect. Everything I could ever want

But all that I have to offer has never been enough.

I don't understand why, when all she does is hurt you

She's never there for you and all you do is fight

I do all the things she won't do, go above and beyond for you

Despite all of this, you stay and yet you say you love me

You love me because of the way I make you feel and the way I treat you.

If you could, you'd be with me or so you say.

But those are nothing but

empty words to keep me hanging on

All of the empty promises. I once would have looked past

But no longer can I allow for my heart to hang in thin air

You told me you loved me and were in love with me

And I was all that you wanted

I treated you like a queen, gave you everything

I would have jumped through fire for you

Never questioning why

Despite all of this, you're still not by my side

A million times I've asked myself why?

Why aren't you with me?

Why do you continue to lie to me?

Why do you contiune to lie to yourself?

Inside you're trully not happy, but you put up a front.

For what I say?

You know I'd never stray, I'd always be by your side

Catch your tears and hold you tight

And yet that's not enough..

Just tell me it will never be!

I said I would wait, I would wait forever and put my heart on hold

But I've come to realize that's no way to live, nor is it fair when maybe..

just maybe... someone out there wants to offer me all you could, but WOULDN'T

So today is the day that I finally let you go

I'm going to finally heal and allow myself to love

To close the door that leads to you

The door that once held such happiness, but now it's nothing but COLD

You will forever be my friend and never will you have to wonder if I love

you

As I said, you will forever be in my heart

I wish you happiness and love

A life with her that you so desperatly long for

You've bought me so much pain, but on this day you bring me joy

Because today is the day that I finally let you go"

(April 8, 2006, 95bravogrl02)